I have experience with only one person, attempting first-time intercourse but failing because we were both inexperienced and ultimately breaking up. This is a bitter memory from when I was a 19-year-old college student. During fellatio, I would ask 'Doesn't it hurt?' or be surprised by the overflowing precum. During sex, I would tense up, making penetration difficult, but I pushed through to the end. I stared at the condom stained with semen and blood while crying. I also learned how to masturbate, practicing orgasm with my first toy and experiencing 'coming.' On the day I lost my virginity, I even experienced a threesome—truly a day of firsts.
